IM CRAAAYYYIIING
SHES ALREADY GONE NOW...
I HVENT EVEN MEET HER FOR THE LAST TIME... THIS IS RIDICULOUS.. NO ONE EVEN TOLD ME THIS...

That damn thing i always think.

People always say "just be your self" THAT easy. I mean sometimes i wonder..., do they really ever be in the position where its really hard to be your self, cuz we always think:
'What if being your self isnt good enough for u to fit in?'
'What if for being your self makes u being the unwanted person?'
'What if being your self isnt good enough for the society?'

And many ppl also say
"Why the hell u even care about what the society think about you? As long as you happy, just enjoy ur damn life! U dont have to care about what other ppl think about u"

But if some ppl questioning me these kinda question like:
'Do i care about what the society think about me?'
The answer is deffo a BIG YES.

We're human, we take ppl's advices, comments, and suggestions.
Can you even imagine, the time when youre feeling lonely but the next second you realize that youve no one to rely on bcuz u cant fit in to the society?? Bcuz u dont take ppl advices.?!??

The bottom line is
I always get too insecure about the things that other ppl told me. Maybe on the outside i may seem like i dont give any fuck with it, but on the inside i always over thinking about what other ppl think about me, which is not a good deal.
Here's the thing >>
How can u move forward if those bad comments from ppl always holding u up from running forward to reach ur fuckin dream?!?

I dunno what to do with this.
Help.

Instagram? Yes Please

im a fan of instagram. but in case they didnt make any instagram app for blackberry, so i've to end up edit it on my own pc app...its pretty look alike tho.. :P

I tried

Can someone please show me how to stop thinking about somebody special in ur heart?? its totally killing me. Every single day passed but my feelings for him haven't changed. This is HORRIBLE i've to stop this stupid unnecessary feelings. I need to focus on school now. But something in him just makes me overwhelm. I cant help but go with my heart's flow. So far, i've let my hearts led me to where it wants but i think this is the time to stop. I realize its kinda hard, but I HAVE TO.

Deep.

I just hate it...

When he met me, a little cute smile appeared on his face. (i cant help but lost control)

When we were in that same place, and he asked me what did i do. (mini heart attack)

i always try to forget him. but there just always one thing popped out and that thing reminds me of him, then i just failed my effort to forget him. THIS IS NOT RIGHT.

SOMEONE PLEASE CALL 911, TELL THEM TO GET EDWARD CULLEN INTO MY HOUSE, THEN I'LL ASK HIM WHATS ACTUALLY ON "that boy's" MIND. 

LIKE PRETTY PLEASE????

Happy New Year!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODEEEHHH~


i know its kinda late, but in case my last post said "Dec 13th 2011" so i think i've to say happy new year!
Yup, its January 11th 2012 already, so there are a lot of things going on as long as i didn't post anything here.
Btw, today is Wednesday (ikr DUHH), but thats not the point, what im tryna say here is that:::: TODAY IS THE WORST DAY OF 2012 so far. 
first thing, my friends kinda mad at me and my besties so here's the story


My english teacher divide my class into 8 groups consist of 4 ppl for each group. the very 1st thing that crossed on my mind was just....who else gonna join into our (me n my besities) group. cuz i thought that 'them' would make their own group. so we thought we've to make our own. one thing that i didnt expected at all is that, we're gonna make a group with aksjdfh...right after we make a deal with 'aksjdfhasdfasdfaf' WE WERE JUST REALIZED THAT THEY WANT TO BE IN OUR GROUP....i feel bad. (sebenernya ini random abis ceritanya kalo di tulisin di blog) udah ah, move to the second thing aja ya


SECOND, GUE LIAT DIA NGETWEET GITU...langsung -krak,,pyar- oke ini lebay saudara saudara!.


and THIRD...sebenernya ga ada third sih,, tapi tuh the two things above has been successfully ruin the whole day...


all i need now just a MOOD BOOSTER.

kthxbye

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