Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Cendikia Teknika UGM



People might wonder what is CT as in a technical meaning..? Well technically, CT is a student-run organization in Faculty of Engineering UGM. CT runs in academic and profession sector. So basically people here are awesomely full of good spirit and pretty much fun.
But for me, CT also has a special meaning despite all the labels that people might’ve put on top of its name. A second family I may say. A special place that has witnessed a lot of things, from how all of these unrelated people become a new family to how this small group of people can make a change in society, even just a little change. CT makes every changes in society become possible and easier, not because we are a big and powerful community, but because we are a family. And that’s what you should’ve felt when you become a part of this family. The first time people heard it, they might be wonder what is it? And frankly, I did too. I didn’t even know what exactly CT was when I first joined it. But as the time goes by Im starting to realize that I think I chose the right path to be a part of CT. this may sound so cliché but I do think by joining CT it can lead me to be a better person as I am before. Because in CT I get to meet a lot of new people with different background and yes it brings me to a whole new level of relationship with people. CT is also a place for me and many other members to share their greatest creation well not only the great one though, because CT is not only a place for a professional people only but also for those who want to learn and try something and make their best effort out of it.

Friday, February 7, 2014

I fear oblivion

"What do you fear?"
If there would come a time when someones finally ask me that question, i would just stand still at where i am standing and let the words that leave my mouth do the work. I would just say

    "I fear oblivion"

No, i'd answer that not because i read The Fault In Our Stars, well lets just say its not completely wrong though, the book does give me some kind of weird effect. After i read that book, i even started to question myself. What do i fear the most? And I think that Oblivion is by far the truest answer i could ever think of. I mean, who doesn't fear oblivion? We can't run from the fact that someday our time will come. Someday each and everyone of us will leave this world that we love so much. Someday we will leave our family, friends, and loved ones behind. Doesn't that make you scared of oblivion? I do. Who am i kidding? I'm afraid what if at some point of life people will forget about me. Forget if i ever existed in this world. I ain't no Einstein that people keep talking about because he made such a history himself. I ain't no Barack Obama who can lead so many people and stay humble. I ain't no Beyonce who has such a voice that can make the whole world sing together with her. But what can i do? Oblivion is inevitable.
 But i have to admit it to myself that oblivion motivate me to at least try to leave a mark in this world, a mark that would make people at least wondering who am i. It motivates me in a way that anything else couldn't. It motivates me to do more and be more in this life. So that eventually someday, when my time is arrive, i can leave a mark for people to remember me. Until then, i am just going to work on it and at least leave a mark in my friends and family's heart. And eventually be 

S O M E O N E 

xx
a

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Twenty Fourteen

WADDUP NIGGAS!

HAPPY FREAKING NEW YEAR 2014 PEOPLE!
(nobody even gonna read this shit anyway)
 
I cant believe its 2014 already. Time flies so fast, i know im barely posting stuff here. but anyway nobody even give a shit about this blog so why bother to post everyday.
hA

well...actually there's something that bothering my mind lately. Here's the thing, next Sunday ill be on my exam week. Yes i know it'll start soon! way too soon i guess. And these days my parents keep on reminding me to keep on studying and blah blah blah. you know just some usual stuff that parents would usually say. but then like a couple of days ago, my mom and dad just decided to give me a car! YAAAY IM SO FUCKIN EXCITED until things went down. my mom said "well if you wanna get a car then you have to get A+ in all subjects."

yep

my mom just fucking said it.

it hits me like a ton of bricks.

my jaw literally just dropped

i mean not that i mean i dont want to make them happy. its just both of my parents have so much faith in me which is good, but i just dont want them to set their hopes too high. im just scared that i will let them down. i know my own capabilities. and i freaking know that its so fucking hard to get A+. im not being such a drama queen here, but you really gotta see what my friends are like. they all are like a monster in class esp. the boys. its nearly impossible to beat their ass off in class. idk though im not the smartest student in class. but maybe my parents are get used to Me who always got the 1st rank at high school, to ME who always spend time to study. and im really scared to let them down. :(

i dont wanna let them down

i love them

but if things keep going this way what am i supposed to do then? 

but i will keep try to give all my best for them bc i wouldnt be here w/o their support and i really wish that someday i could give back everything that they gave to me. 





xx
a.